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Alluring Alarm CH8 - LatSea
It had been a little over four years since I had last seen Raivis. He called me at least once a month, so it wasn't like I was completely out of touch with him, but I hadn't seen his face for four long years. I hadn't seen his smile, and I hadn't held him or touched him in so long. I had only heard his voice. But that was enough. His messages were always short, because they were made whenever Ivan was out of the house, but whatever he said was important to me. I got to hear his laughs, and I got to hear his tears as sometimes he just called me and cried. I missed him terribly, but at least we were able to talk to each other.
I was sixteen now, and he was nineteen. Still, he was older than me. I hadn't caught up; he'd always be ahead of me a little-just by three years. I still lived with my adoptive parents-Sweden and Finland, and Raivis was still living with Russia. He had managed to tell me bits and pieces of what had happened to him, and events of the previous invasion as well. Raivi
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Alluring Alarm CH7 - LatSea
I sat on my bed, staring up at the ceiling with wide eyes. Raivis had told me not to come over, and not to call him. That had been a few days ago. I hadn't done so because I wanted to respect him, but I just really wanted to see him. He didn't call me or tell me anything, so I didn't even know if he was over at Russia's yet. I told Papa, who told Finland, but they just said they'd think of something. …Yeah. They didn't seem to be all that surprised that I said I loved Raivis, either. At least, Papa wasn't. I saw Finland was a little surprised, but smiled. Too bad I didn't tell them earlier. Maybe things would have been different if I had said anything at all earlier.
I sat up, pushing myself off of my bed and picked up the phone, my finger hovering over the number panel to punch in Raivis's number. "Peter, please don't call me either, okay?" I could hear his voice force out in a worried tone as I had left his house a few days ago. I had promised I wouldn't, but I really wanted to
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Alluring Alarm CH6 - LatSea
I didn't do what I had told him. I decided to leave a few days early, so he wouldn't try to stop me. As much as I knew he wanted to, I didn't want Peter stopping me from submitting myself to Russia. I assumed that he had already told Sweden and Finland about all of this, but I wondered what they'd do… I closed my eyes faintly, remembering all of Peter's smiles and all of his cheery spunk. Ah, we had never roasted marshmallows on my fireplace like he had wanted. I guess we'd have to do that in a few more years or so. I still wanted to spend time with him, but that didn't seem to be an option for me. I wanted to see his smile, hear his laugh. I wanted to feel him hold me close like he did. I had finally gotten the guts to tell Peter that the reason I'd follow him around and the reason I was always even shakier around him was because I was nervous about our then relationship. As corny as it seemed, it was a sort of 'love at first sight' scenario-at least, on my part. I wanted to be h
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Alluring Alarm CH5 - LatSea
We were both sleeping on the floor, sharing heaps of blankets. The room was still pretty dark, but I could see the outlines of his sleeping face. He was breathing faintly, and in the stillness of the night, I could hear him clearly. He had a quiet, deep breath that showed he was truly calm. His eyes were closed and he was sleeping in an odd position, lying on his back but curling to one side. I smiled to myself. I hadn't fallen asleep yet because I had promised to wait until he did. "Don't worry, Raivis," I told him when we first got snuggled in. "I'll wait for you to fall asleep. You'll feel better that way." I had grinned, very sure of myself.
Raivis had mumbled something like, "Y-you…s-sure?"
But I had forced him to relax, and he eventually fell asleep. I tried to look out of his bedroom window from where I was sitting, but a thick curtain was covering it, and only a small corner was visible. It was still really dark out, the glimmering of the stars and the moon were the only s
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Alluring Alarm CH4 - LatSea
Yesterday still stuck in my head. All of it. I couldn't forget it no matter how much I tried. And I tried to. Russia had officially decided that he wanted me to become a part of him again, and I'd have to give up again. I couldn't believe how stupid I am for telling Peter that I loved him. Now he's just going to get hurt because I don't think very far ahead of myself. What could I say to him? I didn't even know how to respond. He had held me so tightly after I had broken down that I didn't know what else to do other than cry. I didn't tell Peter what had happened with Russia. He didn't know why I was crying, but he held me anyway. Without saying anything coherent, Peter actually understood me for that moment.
But I doubted he'd understand me any more than that. My mind kept swimming and my heart kept aching. My only option was to give up and let Russia take me. But I didn't want to resume the lifestyle I had once been horribly accustomed to. Russia would force himself on me, and I coul
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Alluring Alarm CH3 - LatSea
I breathed out slowly, trying to cool the hot tea in the small china cup. I sipped it quietly, sitting near the fireplace, in one of the three chairs surrounding it. Now that I thought about it, I really didn't need so many chairs around the place. There's only one person that lives here-me, and whenever I do get visitors, it's only Peter…Or Ivan… But instead of an emptier room, vacant chairs seemed lonelier to me. Why did my house seem so tiny now? It didn't used to be that way. I knew my house was a little snug, but I liked it that way. It was perfect for me. But now…My house just seems so tiny. It's not uncomfortable; it just feels different to me.
I tilted my right wrist back and let the piping hot tea pour into my mouth and quickly rush down my throat. I hadn't noticed it was still that hot. "H-Hot!" I cried, burning almost all of my taste buds off and set down the cup back in its saucer, cringing in pain. Why was my tea so hot? I had been trying to get it cool for
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Alluring Alarm CH2 - LatSea
I stood outside a somewhat rustic-looking house, right in front of the door. It was a reddish-colored house with an old mahogany door. There were some dents and scratches in the door, I noticed. They looked like they were made forcefully, as though from some sort of impact. I could only imagine what had made them as I readied my hand to knock a few times on his door. Without really acknowledging my own strength, I managed to pound loudly several times. There wasn't a doorbell, so I guess I couldn't get any louder. "Open up! Open up! It's me! It's me!" I hollered loudly, waiting for him to open up his door.
I stopped pounding when I heard some scrambling around coming from somewhere inside the house. I heard something crash, and loud mutterings, and so then I had to wait a while. I knew he had heard me, I bet the other Baltics heard me too…After what seemed like a small forever, I heard the door click, and it creaked open slowly, revealing the owner of the house. There was my frien
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Alluring Alarm CH1 - LatSea
There's this other country that likes to follow me sometimes. I don't really mind it, but it'd be nice if he talked to me a little more. He usually just stands there and quivers. His name is Raivis, but everyone knows him as Latvia.
I don't really know how he became my friend, but I guess he was just one of the only people that recognized me as a country. Not even my own jerk-of-a-brother accepted me! I was just "old territory" to him, left behind after WWII. It's pretty sad, but I'm able to get through it! No one can stop Sealand!!
"See'lind," My papa, Sweden, said to me, placing a hand on my head. "Time 'fa dinna'." He readjusted his rectangular glasses with a palm and waited for my response. My papa has a pretty low voice, and looks kind of scary, but he's nice. I agreed, showing my excitement with a loud call. I loved Finland's cooking. Some called it bland, but I liked it. Technically, I had two dads, but only one of them really wanted to be called a parent. It's difficult… F
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Hey guys. The name's Toxi. Not really, but call me Toxi. Or Abby.

This is my writing account. I'll put both fanfics and original things on here.

Main Account: TOXiC-ToOtHpAsTe
FF.net: www.fanfiction.net/~toxi
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boredomkillz Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2010
You whore. I love you. <3
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Faggoat Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2010
; u ; <333
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boredomkillz Featured By Owner May 1, 2010
Had you made this account before you even made that poll? xD
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TOXiC-ToOtHpAsTe Featured By Owner May 11, 2010
NO..BUT...like...three seconds after I made the poll I was like "lolscrewit"
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Isazombai Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2010
*ninjas into watchers*
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Faggoat Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2010
:icontrollfaceplz:
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Isazombai Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2010
Love the name XD
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Faggoat Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2010
ikr??
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Legend-Of-Mile Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2010
/steals comment virginity whut/

Looking forward to your works~
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TOXiC-ToOtHpAsTe Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2010
/on main account

^ P ^ THX MAN.
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